I meant to write this last week, but got busy, so it’s Thankful Tuesday instead. This installation of thanks giving is brought to you by CoQ10. I’m really hesitant to write this, because I do NOT want anyone thinking in any way, shape, or form that I am offering medical advice. This is my story.
I owe a lot to CoQ10. I think. I spent a long time depressed. I saw lots of improvements and lots of regressions, but no remissions. I say that from this point in space and time now, because from here I can see I never broke through during the “improvements.” From here I can see the ocean of depression I swam across. It is vast, deep, and terrifying. I had slipped under a very long time ago and didn’t even realize it. Let me say that again. I did not realize I was depressed.
Someday I’ll blog about how that is possible (for me) and what it is like to live more of your life than not in depression, but today I am really only writing this blog to sing the praises CoQ10. I was looking for something to help me with fatigue. I could not stomach (pun intended) the amount of coffee I needed to consume just to make it through the day. My GERD, dependency on coffee, and fatigue spiraled out of control together.
So I Googled something, found a random post on a random message board by a random woman who said after taking CoQ10 for about 3 weeks, her energy levels returned. She went from all-day fatigue and three-hour naps to functioning normally again. I figured that it couldn’t hurt. I was so tired I wondered if I was pregnant (I wasn’t) but I was first-trimester tired, if you know what I mean.
Three weeks after I started taking it I started feeling less tired. I became interested in things again. Then I realized that I wasn’t so tired, and I realized I was interested in things again. Hallelujah! Stuff was actually interesting, not distracting, not something to do while procrastinating, and not something to do to avoid life. Hallelujah! Depressed people aren’t interested in stuff.
I had missed being interested. I didn’t even realize that I was depressed until I said to myself, “I have become so boring and uninteresting. Of course I am. I have no interests. When did that happen? I used to have interests. What was I interested again? Wait, isn’t that a question on those depression questionnaires? Losing interest in things you used to be interested in? So, am I depressed? Yep, I must be depressed. Hmm. Maybe I can get this fixed.” I never did make it to a doctor to talk about depression.
I wasn’t trying to self-medicate for depression, I was honestly just trying to increase my energy level, but I feel so much better now that I have to attribute it to the CoQ10. It’s the only thing I did differently. I had planned, and I still plan to seek medical care for depression, because I never, ever want to feel that way again, but I am staying on top of my CoQ10 supplements. So, I offer big thanks for over-the-counter health supplements and feeling better.
I must reiterated that I do not tell you, dear reader, this story as any form of advice. Correlation does not imply causation, but I’m human, and cannot help but draw a personal conclusion. If you suspect you are depressed, please seek professional help, a plethora of medical conditions can cause depression. You deserve to feel better, no one deserves or asks for depression. If you need to talk to someone now, try a number from this link.
Update: Turns out I’m not off my rocker. 😀